Principals need to like me.

I need to pay attention to how I come off. I can't really be me. I have to find out what these principals want. It's so hard. I just get so excited and wacky or I feel awkward and I just don't represent myself properly. My mom told me not to ask too many questions. I take it so seriously, I start asking so many questions and the principal gets worried that he won't be able to control me. Or I will be so freakin' awesome that I will make him have to work.

It seems like these principals are mainly interested in black and hispanic people who seem very impressionable and agreeable, two qualities that I can't imagine myself having, but it would help to fake it at least for now.

I was talking about this with a special old friend of mine, Tom (ie. the current man-toy) and what he said is right, it's not about me, it's all about the principal. They are trying to create a particular community within their school. I need to fit into that community.

Some poor old shitty school will be desperate for someone and they will be lucky to have me. Then I will truly be fulfilling the fellows mission of working in a super atrocious high need school. I am concerned that a school that is run like hell may make me want to quit teaching.