Chewed out.. Again.

So this week I was in the Principals office again. It would probably be good if I reflected about it here.

My issue: I have communication problems that will make it hard for me to conduct myself and get along with the staff at AMS. He brought up 2 main concerns:

1) During meetings with him and other staff members I have a tendency to try to finish his sentences before he's done. I'm maybe right half the time, but the other half he has to stop and repeat. (I can imagine that's annoying)

----- maybe it's nerves, maybe I have a legit problem with processing information, or maintaining focus I am using this as a way to stay on point. I know I can be impulsive sometimes and I have trouble listening. He suggested that I take notes or make lists. It might be good to occupy my mind. I must work on this. I need to know when to shut the fuck up and listen. listen.

----- He also said that this can make others think that I know what they are going to say and I think they are incompetent or dumb. I guess it could come off this way. Hopefully just a transitional phase from my last job where they were incompetent and kinda dumb.


2) The second irritating thing I do is ask questions about what he just said after he's said it. I call those clarifying questions. I just look like a big idiot doing that I am sure it's annoying.

----- It may also be the nerves. So much is being thrown in my face and I have a hard time with all of it. Feeling overwhelmed is making it harder for me to think straight.

----- I could also have a legit processing issue, maybe taking notes will help me.


Overall I know this isn't the first time anyone has told me that I do these annoying things. It will help me in the long run to learn these skills so I can form productive relationships with others. I also feel that he is being a little knit-picky and jumping the gun on talking with me. If I do have the chance to improve and that is recognized it will only reflect very well on me later. Look, there is the girl who had come so far, though I know I always really had it I just needed the chance for it all to reveal itself. It will be important to revisit this and reflect on my progress and keep all of this in mind.

Besides that, I had some successes today. Though it wasn't all perfectly smooth. Most of the advisory period went well and my other classes are starting to take shape.