A loaded comment.

So I had a meeting with my teacher today and we were talking about my attitudes toward teaching. I was reliving a lot of my days at east side house, explaining the tension with my coworkers and my success with the students. I said my biggest worry was not getting along with the administration and having to follow rules that I think are flawed.

Most people who refuse to do what they're told, brake the rules because they are lazy, but in my case the reasons are just the opposite. I am defiant because I think I can do it better. I want to go above and beyond and the rules are not allowing me to be the awesome teacher I strive to be. My teacher said that someone with vision and a hard work ethic such as myself maybe be pressured into administration positions. I'm not sure I want to create policy or run a school. I love teaching.

And then he said a peculiar comment... "You may find that the environment that you are teaching in is not the right place for you. Your values may be different. You might have to work in a different kind of environment." I felt as if he was telling me that the high-need urban schools were not the environment for me. He could of said, "Hey, go teach at the white people school." If these urban schools are like east side house where there is a presumption that people slack off and things are disorganized, well then he may be right. There may be something about the way I am (even beyond my whiteness) that clashes with the people and the culture. It's just a strange thing to say. I joined this program to help students in need, but maybe that's not where I will be most affective. It's certainly something to think about.