How do I be me?

Today we talked about race, forever. There is so much to say about racial stereotyping that never occurred to me when I began working with this population. I never found it a problem to be very open about my background. I also never felt like I had to make myself ghetto to teach these kids. A lot of these trainers are suggesting that I in essence "become black," and I don't agree with that. I don't see my race/sexuality as a limitation. It's being a positive and accepting white queer girl that will encourage the students to learn to work with and accept people who are different. That's the important lesson they need. Anyway, I'm not going to even try to be something I'm not. I must stay true to myself. Which brings me to another identification issue.

How the hell do I address my sexuality?

People seek a lot of comfort in knowing that I am gay. So how do I be me? Identifying as "bi" I run the risk of looking like I don't know who I am which in some ways is worse than being mislabeled. "Bi" doesn't even describe me, it's such a loaded word. I associate "bisexual" with a "straight" slut who primarily dates the opposite gender, but who fucks around with the same gender on the side. I'd rather be "Gay." They may need me to be "Gay." If I violate that assumption I can cause more harm than good. I always get harassed by people when they find out I'm not gay, especially lesbians. I learn to just be gay for the image and have my own identity that I share with people who are special to me. Only certain people deserve to know me and I say fuck the rest!