Hey blog. You know I really lucked out. My professor is wonderful, he's so cognitive, and a little spacey. I love my class, a real sharp group. Considering that only 9% were accepted, it's a pretty elite group of people, and yet I feel like I am dominating the conversations. I have learned so much through my prior teaching experiences. We had to say a positive and a negative about ourselves and I appropriately selected "ambitious" and "arrogant". I can't help but be a little self-assured, I'm kicking serious ass here. I feel like I'm way ahead of everyone and I have so much freakin' insight. This one guy kept saying "that's so deep" after everything I said. That's right I'm deep. I'm intense. I care too much. That's me.
Our society preaches the value of modesty and everyone is suppose to qualify themselves and degrade themselves to the all mighty god of humbleness. But I don't think there is anything wrong with feeling pride. I understand why I get arrogant, and I may want to listen a little more or at least fake some humbleness for my superiors. I know I got to play the game. It makes sense that I feel arrogant, I'm good, and I know I'm good. After today I really believe that I am going to "be something." Something big. I'm going somewhere in life. I need to get prepared for something much larger. I have very deeply rooted beliefs. When I speak very strongly about an issue, it comes straight from the gut. I know that I have their attention. My intense and unstoppable drive must be frightening. People realize early on that I am someone to know. They either try to alliance themselves with me, like the random people shouting my name down the hall, trying to get lunch with me, etc, or they form a plot to kill me.
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Shit man, I wish I were in your class. If I didn't know you I'd totally hit on you. Or at least we'd be best friends :D I wish I could hear some of the discussions you guys are having, and some of the insights you're able to offer. I love chatting with you about this shit. You inspire me! Any particularly interesting class conversations you'd care to share?
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